Heartbreak Hotel

Dewi is very good at showing me things I don't want to see, and telling me things I don't want to hear. She did it again yesterday and it hurt.

It's been a while

It's been too long. I haven't forgotten about this. Dealing with losing many friends this year due to the military and moving around. I still communicate with them but I know I'm losing one more next month and I hope no more. I can't handle anymore. Ever since my "brother" moved not even a month ago I have dreams about him at least twice a week. It makes me miss him. I also have dreams about my other friend who has been gone for, wow, almost 3 months. We have stayed up late at night sometimes (even later for him on the east coast) and talked, he confessed to some things he had been feeling and reasons for why he did what he did and it shocked me, and unfortunately made me miss him more because it turned out he cared a lot more than I thought. Ughh.

So trying to save money, trying to get tan this summer. Yeah......